Friday, 20 April 2012

owned.

I tear the keys
From one set of hands to another
Willingly, these shackles never leave me
I am never my own,
Just the property of control,
Influence, manipulation
And you.

accidental.

they hide and cower
under casual disguise
obscured from view

but naked, they stand
red, raised, defiant
against unbuckling skin

stupidity bought me
imprisonment, distrust
if only i’d remembered
to keep my clothes on.

coin flip.

You rest on the tip of his thumb
That tinge of green
Tainting his skin; the effects of
The night before from
Your copper coat wasting
New dawn, new day,
Heads, you’re fine
Tails, insane

He hesitates,
This time, the luck of the fall
Won’t just affect the fickle few
The weak one wakes, smiles,
Unaware that she still lingers
On the edge of a peaceful
Window ledge, leaning over
She can see you
But you’re still rotating
In the unforgiving air
Heads, you’re okay
Tails, unfair

Wincing, as you slam
Onto pavement from
His outstretched hand
You spin, the voices waiting
Endless, maybe
Then you slow
That final shudder
Before collapse
Heads, you’re sorted
Tails, sacked

And the monarch bows
Strained beneath the weight
Of another day failing
To make the darkness cease
In your eyes, she sees it coming
Hears you breathing,
Knows her fate
Heads, if only
Tails, too late.

cardiac abuse.

Why, do you have to keep beating
With all the secrets,
All those names, engraved
Surely there’s no space left
Am I worth it?
This effort, thud after thud after
Pumping all this blood
Do you have nothing left to say?

Just stop, goddamn it!
I shouldn’t have to put you
Through this every day
You’re better off dead, cold
Slammed on a table, or
Moving within another’s
Empty chest, a craving cavity

I take you for granted,
And I’m sorry, leave me be
Then I’d realise, I’m wasted
I can do nothing, be nothing
I’m not worth the beat.

Thursday, 29 December 2011

that last box, ticked.

it hurts, breathing.
that last box, ticked,
coutning on your list
there's no-one left.

it hurts, smiling.
that one named, caged
in the middle of a page
they've all gone.

it hurts, talking.
make them smile,
stay aminute, stay a while
i've lost them all.

it hurts, climbing.
back up to the start
i was stupid, wasn't smart
they're not coming back.

it hurts, living.
alone again, chances faded
cold again, warmth i'm craving
they never thought about you anyway.