cutlery draw.

a second of time stops
a gasp escapes
blood spills
bile rises, tears sting
of all the knives to choose from
you know
without knowing
which blades are sharpest
to penetrate my
unsuspecting flesh

backing away
arms reeling
hiding from the pain
nobody has noticed
the intensity of your intimacy
or my cloak of cold humiliation

lock bolted
body slammed against
smooth, wet tile
liquid luck transforming into
preying shadows
cowering, shivering, clutching
my wretched soul
beg for mercy
please
don't let that agony
drag me into bitter darkness again.